May 31, 2021 – Tessa Dean

SHARE YOUR WORLD 5-31-2021 Memorial Day

Welcome to Share Your World and Melanie’s Rules!

QUESTIONS

What activity instantly calms you? It used to be reading, but I can’t seem to get into reading much lately. It also used to be writing, but even that is not calming now. Sometimes binging cooking shows of some sort even though I hate cooking. I am seriously anxious right now and almost nothing is calming.

What’s the most spontaneous thing you’ve done lately? I don’t do things spontaneously. Perhaps cutting down on my hours of live streaming on YouTube could be one thing. I never thought I would make it official (made a video announcing my schedule change) and now I just have to remember not to schedule all those streams. I have been doing it automatically it seems.

If people receive a purple heart for bravery, what would other color hearts represent? (Example yellow heart = cowardice) Well red makes me think of anger/rage. Green is money/wealth. Blue is medical related. Black is death.

What is the bravest thing you’ve ever done or witnessed someone else do? I had to think about this a bit. I think it would be the time the club I worked at caught on fire and I had to break the panic that was engulfing me and make a run for it with my coworkers. I came to a dead halt and someone had to drag me along making it dangerous for us both. He wouldn’t leave me and so I had to get up the courage and move. He was brave because he wouldn’t let me stay behind to die in the fire. I was simply frozen in terror. (Fire was an extreme phobia when I was a child. I am still terrified, but not as bad as I was as a child)

Tessa –

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website –http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing – http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life – http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a published book on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

The Weekly Smile for the 31st of May, 2021 #weeklysmile

My smile:

It is getting harder and harder to find something to smile about. My depression is deepening and my health is getting worse. I spend more time in the hospital than out of it anymore.

I guess my smile will have to be that I am going to make some changes in my life. Exactly what I am not sure, but I am starting with taking back some of my free time from YouTube and cutting down my hours of live streaming on there. I get very little sleep and do nothing else it seems. Even my writing is slowing down. I prefer short stories to novel writing and think at this time, I am going to put all those grand plans at a huge series to rest, possibly permanently. Book one I am still trying to finish, but not even sure that will get done at this point. It can stand alone so it isn’t as if I have to write a series. I didn’t start it with that in mind.

I posted a video about the decrease in my live stream schedule and that is a load off of my chest. Happy Memorial Day to those of you in the US.