Non-Fiction, Poetry, Writing

Mourning

This is the bench that my dad got in loving memory of his wife, my mom.

Mourning

By Tessa Dean copyright August 2020

When my mother passed away my father was lost.

He lost his true soul mate at a great cost.

We all miss her dearly that’s true.

She has more mourners than a few.

Mourning a loved one never ends.

And sometimes there’s no time to make amends.

Life goes on as it must.

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.

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Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

Non-Fiction, Poetry, Writing

Sunrise, My Day Ends

Sunrise, Yoga, Nature, Meditation, Sky
Photo compliments of Pixabay.com

Sunrise, My Day Ends

By Tessa Dean copyright August 2020

As the sun rises

I head to bed.

Trying to get comfortable

As I lay my head.

I usually sleep in short cat naps

Unless someone at my door raps.

The world goes on without me

And all I pray is let me be.

My sleep is riddled with nightmares.

I envy those that sleep without cares.

I wake up with a start

Holding my hand over my heart.

Heart pounding hard in fright,

I found day had turned into night.

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Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

Non-Fiction, Prompt, Writing

Share Your World – With A Twist 8-10-2020

Share Your World – With A Twist 8-10-2020

I am in no way interested in Harry Potter. I will stick with the old questions and answers format.

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“Plain” Questions:

Would You Rather Live 120 Years That Are Comfortable But Boring, Or Live Half As Long, But Have An Exciting Adventure Packed Life? I am not an adventurer. I don’t mind boring. So make that 120 years for me. More time for writing.

What’s Something That Overwhelms You? People/Humanity overwhelm me. I like a nice quiet setting to be alone, which is my usual preference.

What Do or DID You Take For Granted? Before Covid 19 I took everything for granted. I have a new granson who I see only by photos and an occasional short video. I am missing his first year of life and for all we know maybe the first 2 or 3 years of life. I know longer just go shopping if I feel like it. I have to need something and make all trips count.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

Non-Fiction, Prompt, Writing

The Weekly Smile for the 10th of August, 2020 #weeklysmile


The Weekly Smile for the 10th of August, 2020 #weeklysmile

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What made you smile?

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I completed and won my Camp NaNoWriMo session this time. The best part is that I am still working on it. I didn’t lose interest like I usually do. I still have at least a third or more of the story that isn’t written at all, but I know where I want it to go so even though I quit with the outline I still know the story. Although it has evolved numerous times as I worked on it. It is a thriller and I needed a murder or two and a villain, the murderer. Something new for me. I am still smiling about this one.

Trent’s Rules:

Here is list of “rules” and guiding ideas.  If you don’t have time to read it right now, just remember that this is an exercise to spread positivity.  Don’t smile about the misfortune of others.  Don’t smile in a way to excludes others.  Make sure a 12 year old can read it.

To join in, write a post to share your smile and then leave a comment on this post with a link to your smile.  Or, if you prefer, do a pingback to this post (pingback = have a link from your post to this one) (Note – pingbacks have been very inconsistent – please leave a comment 🙂 ).   You can post any time until next Sunday evening (to be simple, I will say midnight GMT, which is 7 PM Sunday for me).   Next week I will compile all of the Smiles and do a separate post of them on Monday morning just before the smile.  (I will shoot for around 7 AM EST

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

Non-Fiction, Writing

#WeekendCoffeeShare – Writing Challenge

WeekendCoffeeShare – Writing Challenge – Youtube and Writing

Coffee, Pen, Notebook, Caffeine, Cup

Hey everyone, this is Teresa Smeigh from www.tessacandoit.com and I am posting on my new blog www.tessadeanauthor.com. I am writing with a pen name now.

Thanks to Eclectic Alli for hosting this prompt.

If we were having coffee, for one thing I wouldn’t have coffee as I don’t drink it and it is way too hot anyhow. I am mainly drinking water only or occasionally I will make a pitcher of ice tea. You can choose your poison.

If we were having coffee I would tell you that I won NaNoWriMo and hit my goal on July 23. I am still working diligently on the novel I started. It is a thriller and I am obsessed with the story and it has kept me working even though the month is over and I usually quit whatever I started writing for the month. I love this story and am working hard at it. I am over 40,000 words already. It might not make full novel length so might just be a novella, but I am working to actually finish it. I have never completed anything I started on NaNoWriMo and this looks like I might actually complete it. It will most likely be posted on my blog or WattPad as a second choice. I have my own blog so not sure I will post it on WattPad.com. However, I still have a ways to go until completion so I will make a decision then.

My dad has recovered from Covid-19 my sister and I went to the nursing home to visit. Visitation is being allowed by the governor but must be held outside and within social distancing guidelines. Fine with us since we have no desire to go inside the building which is riddled with the virus.

I had the third injection on my spine and I am in worse pain than the first two. This was the absolute worst one. I spent most of Thursday and Friday recovering.

I am a dummy and got lured into one of the Medicare scams going around. I wasn’t doing my best and they got me. I had to call Medicare and get a new number due to fraud and now dealing with changing the number at all my doctors, pharmacy, etc. Plus I have to watch my claims to see when they try to use it. I got the items Saturday and I had to refuse them unopened and return them. Now we watch for any wrongful claims. Hopefully within a month or so this will pass as they no longer will accept that number and if it slips by they will retract any payments. I already know they aren’t accepting the number as I got a notice from the pharmacy that they couldn’t fill my Part B prescriptions due to the number change.

Everyone be aware. Scams are everywhere and they prey on those of us on Medicare more. I wasn’t as vigilant as usual and they are getting smarter. They played me and won, but I realized it almost immediately and called Medicare (requesting a new number and they don’t always approve that so I had to wait and see, but they did approve the change) and then reported it to the state attorney general, the Federal Trade Commission and my local police.

Be safe everyone,

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website –http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

Non-Fiction, Prompt, Writing

Reena’s Exploration Challenge #147

This is Teresa Smeigh from www.tessacandoit.com writing from a new blog using a pen name.

Reena’s Exploration Challenge Rules

It is time for yet another dive into realms of the conscious, sub-conscious and unconscious mind.

PROMPT #147

Let the prompt take you anywhere – nature, art, fashion, interiors, emotions, perspectives, different aspects of anything, whatever colour means to you or the metaphors which emanate from colour. Interesting photographs, or works of art are also welcome.

I eagerly await your brilliant black and white entries 

As usual, there is no restriction on length or format of the piece. Write a post on your blog, and copy-paste the link in Comments. In case you are using a pingback, do check back to see if it has worked.

Last, but not least, don’t forget to tag the post “Reena’s Exploration Challenge” for easy location in the blog roll.

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A colorless world. To someone with Bipolar Disorder life itself, at its very essence can seem dull and colorless. Only recently have I felt as if the color has re-entered my world. I am doing something I want to do just for me. I am creating youtube videos, editing them and doing live streaming on my channel about writing. I am involved in a story that has taken hold of my imagination and is taking me out of that colorless world I resided in. I feel alive and it is such a unique experience for someone like me. Mental illness robs your life of color, but it is possible to get it back at some points. I can’t say what tomorrow will bring, but today my world is no longer black and white, or even gray. There is color at the edges and moving inwards to fill that void in my head.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website –http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

#SoCS, Non-Fiction, Prompt, Writing

The Friday Reminder and Prompt for #SoCS Aug. 8/2020

2019-2020 SoCS Badge by Shelley! https://www.quaintrevival.com/

This is Teresa Smeigh from www.tessacandoit.com writing under a pen name. I am now using Tessa Dean and my new website/blog is www.tessadeanauthor.com.

Linda’s prompt: Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “spot.” Write whatever image the word “spot” invokes. Have fun!

When I think of “spot” I think of the mascot of one of our local newspapers. “Spot” the dog used to come out to one of the addresses and it could be anywhere in the newpaper’s circulation. If the homeowner/renter’s spotted “Spot” the dog walking around the property and approached them, they would win the current jackpot.

Our address had been picked since I had been featured in the paper for an article they did on my job moving out of state and how we would be without our jobs. My husband spotted the dog figure moving around in our yard and approached him. They asked for me and since I had just gotten home from the midnight shift at work I was already in bed, but he came and got me and told me that “Spot” was outside and I needed to come out. We were just getting ready to leave on a trip for the Bahamas and our little jackpot of $400 was definitely appreciated. Our picture as a family, was taken with “Spot” and it was posted in the newspaper. Ahh the memories!

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website –http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

Non-Fiction, Writing

Share Your World – 7-13-2020

Share Your World – 7-13-2020

SYW pizzashare

I am writing this from my new blog. I wrote under the name Teresa Smeigh on www.tessacandoit.com. Now I am using a pen name on www.tessadeanauthor.com.

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Questions:

What song always gets you out on the dance floor? “The Twist” by Chubby Checker

What’s your favorite sleeping position? On my left side, curled up.

If you could snap your fingers and instantly make the world better, what would you do? Get rid of the Covid-19, replace our government and stop the wars. I think they all go hand in hand.

What’s the scariest thing you’ve ever done, and why did you do it? Went snorkeling and only because my ex-husband demanded that I do it while we were on vacation in the Bahamas. I was absolutely terrified and the giant angel fish going after food since they are used to being fed, was the worse thing. I won’t even put my hand in a fish tank and now I was swimming in a giant fish tank.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

Non-Fiction, Prompt, Writing

The Weekly Smile for 7/13/2020 #weeklysmile – neighbor cooked me shrimp dinner

The Weekly Smile for 7/13/2020 #weeklysmile – neighbor cooked me shrimp dinner

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My neighbor likes to cook and he does a great job. I don’t cook. So last night he made a wonderful shrimp dinner, with a baked potato and asparagus.

So my smile was enjoying a plate full of shrimp.

Trent’s Rules

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

Author, Book, Non-Fiction, Prompt, Writing

#WeekendCoffeeShare – Writing Challenge

Coffee, Pen, Notebook, Caffeine, Cup

Hey everyone, this is Teresa Smeigh from www.tessacandoit.com and I am posting on my new blog www.tessadeanauthor.com. I am writing with a pen name now.

Thanks to Eclectic Alli for hosting this prompt.

If we were having coffee, for one thing I wouldn’t have coffee as I don’t drink it and it is way too hot anyhow. I am mainly drinking water only or occasionally I will make a pitcher of ice tea. You can choose your poison.

If we were having coffee I would tell you that I am working on my new novel for NaNoWriMo and keeping slightly ahead of target for the month. I count anything to do with writing in my 3 hours a day goal. If I am writing great. If I am watching a how-to video that is also great. As long as it deals with writing it is fine. Still trying to come up with a title for the book. That is proving a little harder as the subject leads to titles used a few times already which I am told you can’t copyright a title so that isn’t a problem, but I would like something a little different. It has a working title of “Dangerous Obsession.”

My dad has recovered from Covid-19 and on Wednesday night my sister and I are going to the nursing home to visit. Visitation is being allowed by the governor but must be held outside and within social distancing guidelines. Fine with us since we have no desire to go inside the building which is riddled with the virus.

I tossed the outline I struggled all of June with and am pantsing my books as usual. It is in my head and there is no need for an outline. All I really need is a list of character names as they get confusing at times and their relation to the protagonist. Still trying to figure out how to use different POVs (point of view) because I think that will add some necessary parts of the story that would be missing if I was just telling it with a narrator, the protagonist. I need to get inside the heads of those other characters.

I had the second injection on my spine and I am in worse pain than the first one. I spent most of today lying down to ease the pain. Sitting is uncomfortable for long periods of time. I also have to wear a back brace for timed periods throughout the day. This could increase the pain.

Be safe everyone,

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg